By TESSA ROY Joy LaTorre, a nurse practitioner and part-time URI professor, knows first hand how stigma surrounding drug addiction affects grieving parents who have lost children to overdoses. Some [parents] I've talked to feel like they don't have a"
Joy LaTorre, a nurse practitioner and part-time URI professor, knows first hand how stigma surrounding drug addiction affects grieving parents who have lost children to overdoses.
“Some [parents] I’ve talked to feel like they don’t have a right to grieve because their children brought it upon themselves,” she said.
She wants to change this. LaTorre and her team at Build the Banner of Love hope to raise awareness of the “increased epidemic” of accidental drug overdoses but, more importantly, hope to be a source of love and healing for the families who have lost a child. The organization hopes to display a banner of faces of those who died from addiction at the State House to “empower” these families and keep awareness alive.
On Sunday, LaTorre hosted a first annual Mother’s Day Tea for mothers who lost a child to addiction. She said the event was “filled with love, tears, joy and incredible bonding,” and shared thankful messages from mothers who said they left feeling “comforted.”
Two of those mothers who attended, Sherri Flaherty and Diane Lang, both said LaTorre has been helpful to their processes of grieving their children.
“She’s helped me understand a lot of what we’re going through, the ups and downs,” said Lang, who met LaTorre through church. “I don’t know how she finds the time to do the things she’s doing for other families. She’s amazing.”
Flaherty remembered LaTorre sending her flowers and reaching out to offer support around the time of her daughter’s funeral in February. LaTorre has helped her not feel guilty and to overcome the stigma of drug addiction that often puts the blame on mothers, she said.
Lang, of Johnston, lost her son Brian, 29, in October 2016.
“He didn’t want to be an addict. Nobody wakes up one day and says ‘I’m going to be an addict,’” she said.
Lang remembers Brian’s four-year struggle with his addiction to percocet – the last two years were particularly “horrendous.” She described terrifying times in which his girlfriend would call her and her husband in the middle of the night when Brian was having withdrawals. He had been through rehab and was clean for about 50 days, but relapsed 10 days after returning home. Lang said that when he passed away, 20 of his friends held a three-day-long vigil for him in the hospital.
Lang speaks at length about Brian having such “wonderful” friends because he was a “happy, joyful and giving” person. She doesn’t recall ever having to reprimand him as a child – he behaved in school and never missed his curfew. He was devoted to Lang’s 96-year-old father-in-law, often taking him out for meals or bringing him to doctor’s appointments. Brian also worked hard in helping lead his family’s landscaping business, had a “wonderful” girlfriend and a home in Garden City.
“He was a very good boy. He just had a separate life that not many people knew about,” she said.
That Brian was an organ donor and has helped seven other people live is part of what gets Lang and her family through losing him.
“It’s hard to say that now. I can’t say I have three. I have four children, but one passed,” she said.
She also takes solace in her Catholic faith, Grief Recovery After Substance Passing (GRASP) meetings that convene other parents who’ve lost their children to drug addiction, and through LaTorre’s efforts.
Lang said she was thankful to have had her son for 29 years; Flaherty had her daughter Shea-Lee for 18 years. Flaherty believes Shea-Lee began using pills at age 16 before she started using heroin. She said she found it difficult to assist her daughter in finding help because of her age and that her daughter passed away the night before she was scheduled to go to rehab.
“When an addict comes in and says they need help, it’s always, ‘we’ll help you tomorrow.’ Because it’s such an epidemic, they don’t have room for anybody… You need some kind of support,” she said, going on to describe numerous drugs that were found in her daughter’s system on a day where she was told she needed to wait before getting into a rehabilitation center. “Somebody needs to be able to have a say in your life when you’re that bad. A lot of times I was turned away because she was 18.”
One of the scariest things for Flaherty was witnessing Shea-Lee turn into someone she no longer knew. Drugs caused her to lose interest in many things she loved and changed the way she treated people.
“I worried every night, and the other part of me was upset that I lost the daughter I knew. She wasn’t there for a little while. I think that’s the scariest part,” Flaherty said. “You have a child you raised and when they start doing drugs, they’re a totally different person.”
But Shea-Lee “wasn’t just a drug addict. She was more than that,” Flaherty said. Her daughter loved animals, the ocean, cooking and baking. She was “just a regular girl” who was “absolutely caring, loving, and giving.” Flaherty also attends GRASP meetings, which she finds helpful since everyone else who attends has experienced the same pain.
Neither Flaherty nor Lang feels embarrassed, ashamed or disappointed by their children, and both emphasize the importance of talking about drug addiction.
“Nobody thinks it’s going to happen to their child or to someone in their household, and then all of a sudden that person is gone and they’re never coming back,” Lang said.
Adds Flaherty, “If we don’t talk about it, more children are going to die…The whole world needs to get over [the stigma] because they’re not understanding that drugs don’t have a face. They’re not partial to anybody.”
LaTorre agrees. “This epidemic crosses all races, religions and social status and age, none of which is a common denominator,” she said.
As for why she does all of this for strangers, LaTorre said, “I do the things that I do because that is what love does.”
Construction on the Banner of Love will begin in late June or early July and will be displayed at National Night Out August 1 in Oakland Beach. For more information about the Banner of Love and how to contribute photos of loved ones visit www.buildthebanner.org.